If you asked me

If you asked me...I would tell you I love to play Nina Simone really loud when I am home alone and sing along with her.
If you asked me...I would tell you that I still get butterflies in my stomach when I see Mark's name on caller ID on my cell phone.
If you asked me...I would tell you that moving to a new country and starting over again is hard.
If you asked me...I would tell you that so many people misjudge me.
If you asked me...I would tell you that I go into the boys' room at night to watch them sleep and smell their skin and sometimes it makes me cry that time is going so quickly.
If you asked me...I would tell you that my one regret in life was not to stay one more night in Edinburgh with Mark to see Tony Bennett and Diana Krall live in the park below Edinburgh castle in Summer 2000.
If you asked me...I would tell you that I am trying so hard to let the soundtrack in my head be more kind and encouraging to myself.
If you asked me...I would tell you that my ultimate dream would be to be a great actress.
If you asked me...I would tell you that I believe that God has been watching over me all my life and always will.
If you asked me...I would tell you that life is messy sometimes.
If you asked me...I would tell you that I am the luckiest woman in the world to have these two amazing little men call me "Mom".
If you asked me...I would tell you that I so badly want to be who I really am and try to be that person completely.
If you asked me...I would tell you that my favourite drink is Savannah.
If you asked me... I would tell you that the people who care don't matter and the people who matter don't care.
If you ask me...I would tell you I am so grateful.